Ok. Just a quick head’s up about Mars and Pluto together in Capricorn squaring Uranus in Aries. This is a little intense…maybe more than a little. Mars and Pluto together is like NO BULLSH!T. It’s NO energy and it shows us the stuff we’re no longer willing to tolerate. This is not warm and cozy. It’s about moving on, transforming or destroying what’s not working, saying goodbye and grieving in a very visceral way.
Uranus in Aries continues to light the revolutionary fires deep inside us as well as in very visible ways in the world at large. We’ve seen brutal action from many factions who believe in the causes they’re fighting for and the values they want to promote. While some of these groups and their methods are absolutely repugnant, if we were to see the world from their perspective, the change they want to create is valid based on their experiences and perceptions. These people are coming from a reality of oppression and rage… a very dangerous combination.
What does it mean for us? It means that we might need to really slow down right now and shift our priorities. Trying to get stuff done or trying to match the frantic pace, or trying to defend against the energy that feels like an attack is a losing proposition.We simply can’t fight or even manage this kind of energy without paying a price. To be in the midst of this energy is to risk a deep kind of soul burn-out.
How about just stepping aside for a bit? Just stop. Seriously! STOP. Just make being quiet your total focus. Make peace your only aspiration. Do something that makes the body feel safe and loved. Food, rest, touch, sound, scent. How about that? This is where the relief is and we need to make it a priority because it’s not going to happen on its own.
I was really frayed at the end of last week. REALLY FRAYED. I was hitting a bottom of sorts and felt weepy, screechy and angry. I was having a hard time controlling my reactionary impulses and felt like lashing out or collapsing in the corner. Then, on or about Monday night I decided that my only real task was staying calm and grounded. I made that my whole focus. I gave up everything else and made this my only ‘work’.
I can’t even describe what’s happened in the last few days of deciding to focus on inner peace as opposed to control or willfulness (Mars/Pluto/Uranus themes). I stopped trying to be good at work. I stopped trying to be organized. I stopped trying to be on top of everything. I stopped trying to be noticed or understood or loved. I just stopped and made myself my whole focus. All I need to do is stay calm and grounded…all I need to do is stay calm and grounded.
What has come out of this experiment is the realization that I don’t need to control, I just need to be steady in the storm. My steadiness does not guarantee that everyone will treat me well but it does guarantee that I can handle the slings and arrows that have become the norm these days. As I bring my attention back to peace, I see that my freak out is related to my inability to make things be how I want them to be. As I let go, suddenly I feel in love with the very chaos that was driving me to the edge of reason.
I’m certain I’m not explaining this well. I know I’m not because it’s hard to explain enthusiasm, inspiration and euphoria. I’m in love with the crazy and I recommend you find the pathway to love as well. It starts with surrender…letting go of the rigidity. If we try to stand up to this clash of the titans (Mars, Uranus and Pluto) we’ll be confronted with our limitations. This is not bad news.
Know your limitations, celebrate them instead of lamenting them. Welcome them instead of resisting them. Be happy knowing that limitations bring comfort. Limitations bring definition and boundaries and awareness. Be about quiet and peace and calm in the little world you call home. This little world is enough. It’s more than enough and by really being in this little world, we can let go of trying to make the big world different. It’s so, so good!! SO GOOD.
xoxo
-Julia
